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Thursday, 05 November 2009

  • Beauty, Value, missed opportunities

    "If you're beautiful, but unintelligent, unmotivated, and.. dumb, you have little or no value.  It's like being a barbie doll--plastic almost." - my mom
    I agree with her on that.

    My mom was telling me what her friend had told her: Her friend's daughter is my age.  She's beautiful and gorgeous, but she's not that smart. She said that because she is so beautiful/pretty and attractive, the guys she encounters distracts her from school, and she's become unmotivated to work hard and even go to school. Because of this, she loses value.
         My mom then tells me what she thinks is the most valuable (though.. i forgot some of the things she said. It was a list of things): being smart, hard working, motivated, and getting good grades.  I was actually surprised that i didn't hear her say "being pretty" on the list (since i thought she was going to correlate being "pretty" and being "smart"), but anyways.. I can say that I have two (or three) of those "qualities" from her list: I believe I am motivated, I have.. decent grades (As and Bs), and.. i would like to hope that I am hard working (although.. i could definitely do better the the time being). At this point, my gut is telling me to "just tell her you have a damn bf for heaven sake.."  Augh.. my mind tells me to do this so often.. like at any "good" moment I have.  Ex: I aced all my exams so far! (and i have a boyfriend, booyah!) xD or.. I passed all my classes with mostly As! (and i have a boyfriend, and i' STILL managed to get good grades. Take that!)  *sigh* So many missed opportunities. It's so scary. I'm afraid that IF I do tell them, they'll put more restrictions against me (which i'm pretty sure is what they'll do), and that they'll blame me for having a boyfriend for every "bad" thing i do (ex: getting a bad grade in school or something, being distracted, not spending enough time with family, etc.)  ahh.. scary.

Tuesday, 03 November 2009

Monday, 26 October 2009

  • curiosity

    Out of total randomness, my friend asks me:
    hoisin: Wait, are you still bicurious?
    Alfie: hahaahah did i ever tell you i was?
    hoisin: Yes

    .___.'
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    I lost my VTA pass.. again. This is what i do: I put it somewhere, like in a book that i was reading then, and tell myself: "I will remember."  It doesn't work. I forget where I put it, and when I DO find it, it's almost expired.  :(  This time, I do need a VTA Pass... and i don't have one. Weather I use it or not, It's just more handy having it ready when  you need one. Also, due to the fact that i DID pay for it with my tuition fee, I feel like I'm putting my ECO/VTA pass to waste by "losing" it.  ugh.. so frustrated.

Sunday, 25 October 2009

  • Recently, no matter how much sleep I get, I've been feeling more and more tired each day. strange.

    Anyways, new wallpaper! :)
    Kate Voegel <3




    (not sure if it'll works for others, but maybe clicking on the photo will link to a larger-original size)

Monday, 19 October 2009

  • cookie tales

    i LOVE cookies.

    One of my greatest cookie memories was back in highschool when the school would sell us warm/hot (out of the oven), molting chocolate chip cookies as big as our FACE for only 50 cents!  Then a year and a half later, they started to charge at least a dollar for a cookie half the size, then $1.50 for an even smaller cookie.  They were my "high," my joy, and excitement for lunches--until they jacked up the prices.

    Now.. my most current cookie memory: going to Tully Cafe at the MLK library and buying a White Chocolate Cranberry Cookie..

    I paid 99 cents for one, and it was worth every single penny! It was perfect.. not too sweet, soft, still warm, and just really, really good. :) 

    New Mission: Learn to make these at home so that i'll have an "endless" supply of cookies. :P  ahhh.. cravings.

Thursday, 15 October 2009

  • Surrounded by nursing students.. real nursing students!

    I had a mini "adventure" today.. if that's what you want to call it.  It consists of a few things, and they're probably just regular everyday stuff.. but to me, it got me all excited.

    1) I lost my pencil sharpener, so i went to the student store and bought a pencil sharpener!! Sounds lame right? Well.. It's not just ANY regular pencil sharpener.. this one has slits in it that keeps the pencil shadings inside after you use it. it's cool! check it out! (sorry if it's blurry and hard to see - i used my phone camera)

    See the slit now?? :)
    in goes the pencil! 
    this is the most "secure" pencil sharpener i've ever seen. The slits move inward only, and won't allow the shadings to fall out. it's awesome! I wont have to worry about spilling out pencil shadings if i get too lazy to throw them away, and decide to toss it in my backpack. :) 
    ohh, and might i add, it's made in Germany. haha! (and not China--not that i have anything against China made products) Plus, it's Barney colors! (purple, green, and yellow!

    2) While on the park n' ride shuttle, I was sitting in the back of the bus with lots of people around. As everyone was seated, the people around me started talking to each other (like at least 7-8 of them). It started with them talking about vaginal birth, then C-sections, then yanking out babies, talking about their supervisors, mean (kaiser) nurses, first time delivering babies, and so forth.
         Hmm.. They all obviously know each other, they're probably taking the same classes, and doing clinical hours together. This means.. they're nursing students.. it makes sense, they were nursing students!! How awesome!!! It got me all giddy after the bus ride, and I decided to ask one of them, a guy, if he got into the nursing program directly from SJSU. (He transferred from a community college.)  It's kindda geeky but i'm just so amazed by just being in the presence of any nursing student. It's like.. being in close proximity of someone famous or someone you look up to.  It definitely got me excited about a mere (potential) future.  Seeing a whole group of them, and hearing them share share their experiences and everything was like lighting a fire under my butt.. (sounds cheesy) but it's like a fire of motivation to work extra hard and make sure I get better grades.  :]  I'm Fired Up! I can't wait till i can apply to the nursing program. :D I'm anxious, but excited!

    3) I found my halloween outfit! all i need is face paint and makeup, pants/leggings/panty hose, and maybe a scarf and gloves to give it the finishing touch.
    here's a glimpse (don't laugh!): -this picture was initially taken so that San could help consult me over the phone. haha! (thanks San. :)

    on a plus side, i can definitely wear this casually. :)

    Now.. i go eat dinner, relax, watch Grey's Anatomy, Private Practice, and then.. homework.

Sunday, 11 October 2009

Wednesday, 07 October 2009

  • Currently
    Breakthrough
    By Colbie Caillat
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    more Rasputin

    Thanks to Kevin, I now have more music CDs to look forward listening to.  Here's what he surprised me with after his trip to Rasputin:
    "Breakthrough" by Colbie Caillat  !!
    and some older albums by Britney Spears:
    "...Baby one more time" and "Opps!... I did it again" 
    - I remember wanting these albums, especially "opps.. i did it again" when it came out., and I seriously can't believe i have them now!! I'm so psyched out! :D
    - Kevin and I now have three Britney Spears albums together now - which includes her Circus album. :P buahahah. Yes. I like Britney.. especially her older albums. I don't think i'll get tired listening to them. (but that's what i say now... who knows. :P)

    And and.. of course, i'm also really excited about the "breakthrough" cd!! :)  ahh... it feels like christmas.. Thank You Kevin!! <3 you are the best!

Monday, 05 October 2009

  • I like taking walks because:
    it's one of "those things" that really allow you slow down, breath, and relax while taking the time to take in the view of your surroundings and appreciate the small details around you.. like the color of the leaves, the paint peeling off the picket fence, how bent some street signs are, the color of houses, architectural designs, the weather, clouds, birds, cars, the people on the streets, the color of street lamps (if you're walking in the evening), and so forth.
    After taking walks around my neighborhood, or any neighborhood, or even around campus (when i'm not lugging around a giant and heavy backpack) i feel a little more.. "connected" with my surroundings.  It feels good.. and as my friend, Andrew, might say, "it makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside."  :)  I want to do it more often.  It really calms me down and relieves the stress of school, family, friends, etc.  Plus, taking walks has some health benifits.

Sunday, 04 October 2009

  • Currently
    A Fine Mess
    By Kate Voegele
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    Rasputin

    On Saturday night, Kevin and I went to Rasputin's Music in Mountain View and we had a blast looking through their giant new/used music selection. And what's better, they sell books AND movies! (all new and used)  i looove it there!! I bought the 5th harry potter DVD (harry potter and the order of the phoenix) for $7.95 and a (new) copy of Kate Vogele's "a fine mess" album <3. :)  I must come back there again. I had a great day. :) (thanks kevin!!)

    -also, watching Toy Story/Toy Story 2 in 3D was great. :)

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    quote of the day:
    "It's so much easier telling the truth than spending the energy running away from it."
    - Norah walker - from Brother & Sisters